Sam Siatta was deep in a tequila haze, so staggeringly drunk that he would later say he retained no memory of the crime he was about to commit.

  It was a few minutes after 2 a.m. on April 13, 2014. Siatta had just forced his way into a single-story home in Normal, Illinois, a college town on the prairie about 130 miles southwest of Chicago. A Marine Corps veteran of the war in Afghanistan, he was a 24-year-old freshman studying on the G.I. Bill at Illinois State University nearby. He had a record of valor in infantry combat and no criminal past. He also had no clear reason for entering someone else’s home—no motive that prosecutors could point to at trial—no intention to rob, no indication that he knew or had even seen any of the three young female teaching students who lived there, or the boyfriends who were with two of them.

Two of the women and one of the men had awakened minutes earlier when they thought they heard someone opening and closing the front door. It was an unnerving sensation—the feeling that an intruder had stepped into the home. They tried to settle themselves and return to bed, only to be jolted by a house-shaking bang—the sound of Siatta hitting the back door with such force that he splintered the jamb.

The door swung open into a dining area. Siatta strode into the unfamiliar space, just around the block from the similarly sized home where he rented a room. A little over six feet tall and weighing about 175 pounds, he was a thoroughly trained veteran of small-unit ground warfare, heavily tattooed, with red tally marks on his sternum indicating seven Taliban kills from 2009 and 2010. His former company commander would later tell a trial judge that, of the 388 troops he led in Afghanistan, Siatta was the man the militants feared most.

The women cowered behind a flimsy bedroom door. One of them dialed 911. Another clutched a stubby kitchen knife.

Since leaving the Corps in 2012, Siatta had been unable to switch off the habits of war. He was hypervigilant and struggled to relax. He constantly watched people, sizing them up and scanning for threats. In everyday situations, he frequently repositioned himself so no one could get behind him. Much of this behavior was appropriate for combat patrols; some of it stemmed from his training. All of it was mentally and emotionally exhausting, ill-suited for a peaceful life. Going to a restaurant, navigating crowded parties, visiting the mall, or even finding a seat in a classroom relative to other people, windows, and doors—each was a challenge requiring effort and will.

Siatta had been in a deepening funk for months. For more than four years, he had been haunted by memories of civilians his platoon had killed—people whose lives had abruptly ended for a reason as unforgiving as it was simple: being in the wrong place when the shooting began. The Department of Veterans Affairs would later diagnose him with depression, alcohol dependency, and PTSD. But until this moment, he had coped with behaviors that allowed him to pass as less troubled than he was. He avoided crowds, drank prodigious amounts of alcohol to dull his heightened alertness and muffle his sorrows, and socialized rarely, often only with his mother or brother.

The dining area Siatta had entered gave way to a small kitchen, which opened into a modest living room. In that adjoining room, perhaps 25 feet from Siatta, stood one of the boyfriends—another young former Marine. In different circumstances, the two men might have become friends. But they had served in different places and roles in the Corps, and the man in the living room had no idea he had anything in common with the man in the kitchen. He positioned himself between his girlfriend and the shattered door.